Total Destruction

I've been feeling it for a long time. There is an unavoidable step. This whole path goes through the total self-destruction of principles. That step, it scares me. That's why I'm postponing it. That's why I don't dare. That's my fear, to give up, to feel like I'm useless.

It's not just about destroying what I've learned in academies and books, it's also about destroying what I've learned when I watched comics, children's books or cartoons. It is the total destruction of the reflex act. Cause the total collapse of the system.

To start the way I want, from scratch, being faithful to a new manual, I have to give up what brought me here.

What if I'm not capable? What if I quit?

Is there a difference between doing things you don't like and not doing them? With the second option, at least you don't steal anyone's time. It's more honest.

Besides, isn't abandonment more likely to come if I continue to walk paths that don't lead me anywhere I want to go?